perkhabaran

Menonton bola di hadapan televisyen sudahlah menjadi kesukaan gua dari dulu. Bukak MTV dengan Hitz.TV, dengan harapan setinggi gunung adalah lagu-lagu best yang baru. Last2, bukannya ada lagu best pun. Balik-balik lagu yang berunsur "clubbing" ni jugak. Mak dan abah balik kampung, ada urusan. Gua tak ikut, pasal ada hal dekat sini. Adik gua meniarap, sambil meng"atas-garisan"kan dirinya dengan komputer riba ACER. Bosan, cuti memang selalu macam tu kan? Gua nak kerja, abah suruh tolong dia dekat kampung saja. Facebook dan Twitter jangan dilupa, peneman setia di kala boring.

Tiba-tiba gua perasan, "La, gua ada blog ke bai? Lupa pulak" Lantas dengan satu klik yang mudah, laman Blogger ini sekali lagi gua jelajah. Sumpah lama gila bai tak bukak. Laman tempat gua curahkan perasaan,luahkan apa yang terpendam, laman memaki orang. Gua ni pendiam sebenarnya, laman ni saja la tempat gua nak meraban sikit. Kena pulak malam ni entah kenapa bosan gua jadi tahap gila-gila tak dapat tahan,gua kasi la satu post dekat sini. Dah berhabuk pun page ni.

OK,apa gua nak merepek pun gua tak tahu bai. Pasal exam?? Dah lebih seminggu keputusan keluar, keputusannya?? Gua meningkat,Alhamdulillah. Cuma gua kecewa la sikit pasal tak capai ke tahap yang gua dok impikan selama gua bermimpi setiap malam. Dah 4 sem bai gua try. Hampir sangat dah nak capai, mungkin kalau tak pasal satu emel tu, gua dah seronok sekarang. Kecewa jugak la, gua memang dah yakin semester ni dapat apa yang gua nak. Gua berborak baru-baru ni dengan seorang "Old Boy" sekolah gua,kenalan abah. Lulusan luar negara. Gaya macam mat salleh pun ada.  Dia cakap "jangan risau, ini semua konspirasi nak jatuhkan kau. Orang memang tak suka kita ni naik. What you're going through is a complete nonsense." HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Gua hanya mampu gelak bila dengar dia cakap macam tu. Mungkin betul. Tapi, come on la, siapa la gua ni sangat? Gua bukan Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim, petah berbicara.  Gua bukan Tan Sri Azman Mokhtar, memegang "KHAZANAH" negara.  Sampai ke tahap orang nak konspirasi pulak nak jatuhkan. Mula-mula memang la tension,nak salahkan semua orang. Fikir-fikir balik ,baik la salahkan diri sendiri. Abah dengan mak pun faham. Yang penting, gua meningkat dan gua faham apa yang gua belajar. Fikir saja pasal diri sendiri, buat apa nak ambil tahu pasal orang lain.

Sepanjang cuti ini gua berkhidmat sebagai khadam, kuli, dan juga driver kepada kedua-dua ibubapa gua. Kerja macam ni memang la best, ikut suka hati gua saja bila nak bangun pagi. Tak payah pakai uniform. Tapi gaji memang sikit la. Jadi la. Bapak gua lagi suka gua dekat rumah, boleh disuruh buat macam-macam. Jelez jugak dengan kawan-kawan yang ada kerja macam-macam dekat luar. Tak dilupakan senior-senior fakulti gua yang hampir kesemuanya dah pun habis latihan "sangkutan" diorang. Tahniah2,nanti ajar la gua yang junior ni selok belok bersangkutan ye. Gua dengar senior-senior yang baru grad pun dah mula dapat offer kerja macam-macam. Ada yang chambering, ada yang masuk AGC. Tak kisah la lapangan mana yang korang ambil. Tahniah ye, semoga berjaya pada masa depan. Gua fikir-fikir balik, tinggal lagi 2 tahun nak habis belajar. Sekarang masa untuk fikir ke depan saja bai, tak payah nak toleh belakang. Rata-rata member fakulti gua mungkin dah ada rancangan masa hadapan,gua pun dah ada. Tapi tak boleh la bagitau, gua suka buat surprise. keh keh keh keh....

Gua pun dah mengantuk ni. Sumpah gua rasa best dapat bukak blog balik. Jumpa lagi brader-brader dan cikaro-cikaro sekalian, gua nak tido...salam sejahtera..:)

a woman I knew

Broken down to joyous tears. That was your response the minute the doctor told you that there is another heart-beating soul in your womb. Nine months of aggravation and agony had passed, and the moment the doctor lend my fragile body to your arms, you could only utter the words of appreciation to God. I wonder till this day, how much suffering that you had to endured while having me inside of you for nine months?

Since then, you have never looked behind even for a split second. Back when I was four, you filled you night leisureness by teaching me on how to recite the Holy Quran. I was so lazy, keep on running around to avoid all your lessons. It must have been hard for you to keep me quite back then, and even if you did manage to keep a hold of me, I keep on making all those annoying long-faces that would make any reasonable man to lose their indecisive nerves. Yet, you keep your own calm ground.

Then came the moment where I had to leave home to study in a boarding school. It was hard for me to acclimatize in a rather new surrounding, resulting in a series of home-sickness that really bugs me off. I keep on calling home,specifically you, to release all of these abhorrent feelings within me. You were there all the way, being an obedient listener.

After 20 years, I began to question myself, why haven't you complained even for once in regards to all the problems that I had drag you into? You keep on disparaging yourself, telling me that you never went to any prestigious alma mater, you have no goals in life, and you retirement was just another surplus,unlike the man you married. You keep on telling me that it would not be a wise decision to follow on your footsteps. When the world keeps on lambasting me, there are still some who believes, and one of them was you. You told me that I have a bright future up ahead,and I would not end up in veins. Well,heard that most of the time, but the ones that went through your mouth was the one that really made me happy.

All this while, I've been searching for another woman,just like you. After several rendezvous, I've failed, no one is even close to how great you are, not even my current girlfriend. After all the hardness that you went through, I've always reckon that I would repay you, though I knew, that would be almost impossible because what you did for me was way more. I give you my word, I will always belong to you, because you are second, to none. You are the best women I knew, you are my mother.

2nd year...goodbye

A week had passed since my penultimate paper of the semester, in a direct response, concluding my life as a 2nd year law student. Good memories? Lots of them, compared to the rather less-fortunate I guess. Personally, I need to say that I am getting better. Not to brag or anything sort of, but I've been really serious on my studies, even more serious compared to my previous years. Luckily, the God-given endurance that is so hardly needed was there for me all the way.

For the record, my 2nd year as a law student had turned out to be in a more less-turbulent manner compared to the previous one. Maybe due to the fact that I've been more accustomed with my surroundings here, distinguishing it to my naive 1st year life.

For once angain, I am elected as a member of the Law Society here. Feels good that the members of the faculty still wants me around by presenting me with this honourable mandate again. I do feel thankful for them. I give you my words, I will serve you well. 

Not much to say, a 4 months holiday is waiting for me. Happy holidays everyone, see you guys around!

This Journey

What contributed to me being so unearthly lazy would remain unanswered for years to come. I have envisaged a more hardworking form to emerge form the depth of this lameness of myself for quite awhile, only for nothing to actually gets blossoming. Maybe thats the reason why I have been missing from this site for a substantially long period. I have gain some new stuffs, yet some to be proven detrimental. I remembered a few years ago, a particular person I knew told me that it doesnt matter who you are, what matters is what your goal, your target, your dream,regardless of how palpably illusive it might be. So to speak, I've been embarking in this endless throes, within me and with the world I knew. Trying to put myself together turns out to be not like a simple walk in the park. Right now, I am seeing some new and old faces, trying to emerge and getting hold of others around them,gaining disciples in order to prolong their pursuit of power and fame. This is happening everywhere right in front of my naked eyes, from the small medium of my tiny alma mater, to the selected peoples up there. The ones who succedeed has reach the summit of what a reasonable men could actually dreamt of, while the ones who failed, has been left with nothing, blinded in the cruel world of obscurity. Jealousy has always been a catalyst in the structural plan in a men's downfall. Yet, does misfortunes happened coincidently, or for a reason? Does a men's fall from grace occured due to malice, or should they actually deserves such bad luck? I wonder, how does someone actually be confirmed a place on the top, without a clear and significant contribution?  Is that how a leader is actuall selected? Good looks and eloquency does play a vital part on this, I might say.

Now I am putting this from my point of view. Honestly, with this laziness in me, I considered myself nothing, just yet. Why should I down-grade myself to play a pro bono part in this boring drama? I don't see why I should support anyone because to be precise, I see no one to be worth supporting. Some say, that I should start to "be something". Well if this "be something" is to do the Devil's dirty work, I would rather be nothing for now. You dont need to tell me what to do, because I've strategized my own agenda. I don't need to lead right now, because now is the time for me to learn so that I would be prepared. I dont look at the one's who can only speak,without giving a sacrifice of their own. So stop talking and start seeing a reflection of yourself.

They might be the one's on top,for now. Yet, I suggest that they should be prepared for the perdition that is on the horizon for them. When that day comes, you'll fall, and I'll rise.

The Frontman

The Frontman

With all the obedient disciples

Throughout the journey towards an obscure sojourn

Thinking of how accomplished you are

The Frontman

Your imperious nature comes from the imperviousity

By removing the blanket that blocks all that are white

While only making all that are black, invincible

The Frontman

What makes your kind so good?

The way you talk? The way you walk?

The handsome element does proves its pivotalness

But is that all?

The Frontman

Weeks, decades, years of endless defiance

The struggle of everything that looks silly,but rather not

Through this, the nuturing of wisdom does blossoms

Through this, people will bow

Not to the one who speaks through oblivion

But to the one who speaks with his action

Sacrificial deeds are a must

Ignominious results will be in the reckoning

But all will not be calamitous

Once you've become, The Frontman

Maulud....

Mengucapkan Salam Maulidur Rasul kepada semua warga Blogger sekalian. Sesungguhnya biarlah pada hari kelahiran Baginda ini, akan bergemerlapan lagi Nur keimanan yang telah dihadiahkan dari Baginda kepada kita semua, sekalian umatnya. InsyAllah.

From expression, to danger..all in Egypt

I was quite amused to see some post on Facebook by my Malaysian compatriots in Egypt, that they are going to return home,concurrently with the date most Malaysian would be going on a  holiday in conjuction with the Chinese New Year. Nothing weird, maybe Egypt does grant such festivals as holidays. However, I was soon to realize that it was not to be the case. The shocking fact was the nation's citizens are all going on a rampaging frenzy. Riots are conducted thoroughly nationwide. The catalyst towards the catastrophy : To bring the President, Hosni Mubaraq and his regime down to Earth.

Well, to be honest, it maybe the unsubtle manifestation of what the Egyptian have on their thoughts for the 3 decades of dictatorship by Hosni. Coming into office since 1981, he looks as if a sangfroid kind of figure,supposedly due to his military background. However, Egypt has suffered from all sorts of angle, due to the mischievous style of rule by Hosni. Notoriously, Egypt has one of the most corrupted government not just in the Arab region, but in the whole world. Hosni's policy which is favourable towards the Zionist in regards to the Israeli-Palestinian conflict has even made him a rather menacing figure, to the extend that Parade Magazine ranked him at number 20 of the list of World's Worst Dictator.  Hosni Mubaraq's reign was to be seen as having a rather uncurtailed power, even greater than an "absolute monarchy" kind of rule. You guys can witness right now, even after this raucous wrath of the people, he still thinks that he is a figure to be reckon with. To show that, most online medium and phone coverage were blocked to limitize the spreading of anti-Hosni Mubaraq doctrine amongst the people. This goes far beyond just Egypt citizens, but to non-citizens as well.

I certainly felt that this might spark a new wave of Reinassance in the Arab region. A few days back, the then-President of the Tunisian Republic had to relinquish his post due to the emergence of the people. His over-fabulous life, which was concurrent with the poverty suffered by the Tunisians was just considered too much. I believe that this will continue in other Arab nations, which the citizens are getting much annoyed with the fact of how their rulers are so condemned to support the West, rather than to support their own brothers, who mostly shared the same oath of the Syahadah. However, I totally disagree with the way on how the citizens choses their medium of expression. I know that maybe most of them had been left disgruntled with their previous unsuccesfull ways, but causing riot nationwide is only contributing towards more calamitous consequences.

Most Malaysians in Egypt are students, medical students, most of them. Not to forget some who visits Egypt as a holiday sojourn. This chaotic condition causes the unprecedented large exodus of Malaysians from there this few days. Most of my friend had returned home safely in one piece. I do hope that the Malaysian Government would put an even stronger effort to retrieve all Malaysians from Egypt, to avoid them from being engage towards any unspeakable danger. Be strong, may Allah always be by your side, my compatriots.